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Thursday, August 4th, 2005
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| Time: | 1:26 pm. |
| Mood: |  ecstatic. |
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I am officially finished with summer school, and I am very excited. Too bad I only have about two weeks until the fall semester begins.
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2 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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| Time: | 11:39 pm. |
| Mood: |  depressed. | | Music: | Like a Stone - Audioslave. |
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I've decided to start a diet and exercise program tomorrow. I haven't really gained any weight; I'm still about the same as last year. But I'm so sick of not being able to find anything to fit me right. I went to the mall Friday evening to try to find something for Easter. I looked at different stores but finally decided to just go to B.Moss because I can usually find something there, and I've gotten my skirts and tops there for the past two Easters. I was almost in tears when I left. Nothing fit me. I swear, it's a conspiracy. Every store is making everything so much smaller. Am I the only one to notice this? Or am I just really big? I was so frustrated, and I still am. I'm not buying any new clothes until I lose weight. I want to lose 10-15 pounds, and then I will buy some clothes. Until then, I'll save my money and suffer through this.
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4 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 11:26 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | South Park. |
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 | You scored as Intrapersonal. You prefer your own inner world, you like to be alone, and you are aware of your own strengths, weaknesses, and feelings. You learn best by engaging in independent study projects rather than working on group projects. People like you include entrepreneurs, philosophers and psychologists.
Intrapersonal | | 93% | Musical/Rhythmic | | 82% | Verbal/Linguistic | | 79% | Interpersonal | | 61% | Visual/Spatial | | 54% | Logical/Mathematical | | 46% | Bodily/Kinesthetic | | 43% | </td>
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004
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i've pretty much been living at my aunt's house for the past four days. even though she's been doing great since her surgery, she still needs help doing some things around the house, and it also gives her some company. plus it gives me something to do. today, she just about worked me to death, or so it seemed, because she wanted the mopping and sweeping done, but it wasn't too bad. i just basically pick up things because she can't bend over, or i lift things that are too heavy for her. i do whatever she needs me to do. i've actually enjoyed staying with her. i don't usually get to spend a whole lot of time with her one-on-one, so it's been nice. we've talked about things going on in both of our lives and about others. it's been relaxing. i hooked up her DVD player, so for the past three nights, we've watched at least one movie. we watched Secret Window on Tuesday night because i bought it that day at Walmart. i was so excited when it came out. i got it right away. then i rented some movies, and we watched Love Actually. it was a pretty good movie. i had been wanting to see it for a long time. it was a feel-good movie that really gave me some hope. it really made me think. i swear, i was so inspired by that movie, that if i would have had Seth's number, i would have called him up right then. maybe. i had the whole scenario planned out in my head. i knew exactly what i would say. i just didn't know how he would react. one way would be for him to confess that he felt the same way. that would have been the good reaction. another way would have been for him to walk away, laughing. not so good. unfortunately, i did not have his number, and i still do not, and that feeling of confidence and hope has passed, so i am back to square one. last night we watched Cold Creek Manor. not very scary at all. i was expecting much worse. however, i was still jumpy afterward, for some reason. i was washing my face, and my aunt had come to the sink to wash her hands, and i said that soap was running down my arms. my aunt decided to wipe off my arms, but when i felt the towel, i screamed, not knowing what was touching me. i screamed at a few other things also. i'm not sure what the deal was.
i'm leaving bright and early tomorrow morning for my sister's house. i don't feel like getting up and leaving at 6:00 AM, but i suppose i have no choice. i plan on sleeping in the car. i'll wake up when we get there. it should be fun. i usually always enjoy myself. i get to see Kaitlyn and Jared and, oh yeah, my sister, and her husband.
i suddenly don't feel like writing anymore. i need to get to bed, or i definitely will not want to get up tomorrow.
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a lot has been going on lately.
Vacation Bible School was this week at church, and i helped with the third grade. they're a good group of kids-no real problem at all.
my aunt had surgery Wednesday. one of her ovaries was enlarged five times its regular size, and they needed to see if it was just a cyst or something more serious. they saw that the other one was enlarged also, so they went ahead and took it out just in case. she went home today, after many hours of waiting for the doctor to come see her to write out her prescriptions. she's doing extremely well for just having surgery, so that's awesome.
*on a side note: i must rant for a little while on some of the nurses we have in hospitals today. some of them could absolutely care less about the patients. they are so rude. the girl in my aunt's room had had surgery, and she felt like she was going to vomit, but she didn't have one of the little pink containers (i have no idea what they're called). i started freaking out because i thought she was going to puke all over herself, and then i would puke because of her, so i went to grab the trash can. my mom went out to tell the nurses that the girl needed a container, and they said, "ok, we'll get her one in a minute," and the poor girl was lying there, dry heaving and on the verge of tears, and some nurse took her time walking down the hall to some supply room and then walking back to our room to hand the girl the container. i wish she would have thrown up, just so they would have had to clean up the mess because they were so slow. i was so mad. i need to be a nurse. there need to be more nurses with compassion.*
a friend of my family's is also in the hospital. well, she's my aunt's best friend, but she's also our friend. she has Crohn's disease, which causes her to have kidney stones, but the doctors don't think that is what's wrong this time. they're not really sure, actually. all i know is that she's in a lot of pain. and she hasn't eaten since Tuesday. they won't let her eat or drink anything in case they may have to do emergency surgery. there are also certain doctors that she needs to see who can't come to the hospital she is in. her husband said it has to do with "hospital politics." i feel so bad for her. she's just there suffering. and the woman in the other bed is smelly. that makes it even worse for her.
what else?
i finally started reading the Harry Potter books. i've heard mixed opinions on them. some people loved them, and some drilled into my skull that they were of the devil. but something my children's lit teacher said kinda stuck with me. she said you can't really put down the books or decide you don't like them until you actually read them and know what they're all about. well, let me say, i love Mr. Harry Potter. i used all my spare time last week reading the first book, and now i am on the second one. i'm not moving as quickly through this one because i haven't really had the time, but i love them! i haven't seen the movies yet, but i'm thinking about renting the first one, possibly this weekend. they are so good and so addicting. i must go read now. but i will later.
i am an idiot. i figured that out in the past few weeks. i have no common sense at all. i could maybe be called an airhead. not sure. on Memorial Day, my aunt's "boyfriend" came into the living room to perform a magic trick for some of us. he asked us what color red, white, and blue makes when mixed together. i confidently yelled, "BLACK!" everyone stared at me and started laughing. i then learned that red, white, and blue make purple. hmm, who knew. then he went on, and he showed us at the end that he had on a fake thumb. and i asked, a few minutes later after i finally realized what he had done, "you mean you had that thumb on the whole time?" again, everyone stared at me. and then just last week, i went down to my grandma's to go swimming. my cousin was with me, and we were helping my grandma get the pool ready. my cousin grabbed some of the strips that test the water, and my grandma was reading to bottle, telling him to swirl the strip around a few times in the water. well, i thought she was talking about swirling the water, so i grabbed the cleaning net and began stirring up the water, saying to myself, in a British accent, "i'm stirring my witch's brew." too much Harry Potter, i guess. i don't know what my deal is. it's like i have no brain at all. oh well. at least my family gets some laughs from me.
i want to see Dodgeball. it looks so hilarious. my cousin wants to see it too, so i'm going to drag him with me. maybe we could call Nathan because he's freakin hot. umm, yeah. he's a friend of our family, and he comes to our get-togethers. he's a year younger than me, and i like when he's there because it gives me someone close to my age to hang out with. well, we hang out with Travis (my cousin) and Whitney (his sister) who are about the same age (15 or 16). but it's better when he's there and not just because he's hot. he picks on me quite a bit, like my cousin, but it's ok. not just anyone can pick on me. did i also mention he's hot? well, i think he is. i like his hair. it's longer, about to his shoulders or a little past. it's niiice. i think it's about time to call him up and make some plans to go see Dodgeball. hecks yeah. soon, very soon. my cousin seems to think that he likes me. i don't see it, but he said he just had a feeling about it. i asked him how he got that feeling, and he said, "well, he looks at you." hmm, Travis, a lot of people look at me, but that doesn't mean anything. but if he notices, maybe something is up. i wouldn't be complaining. Nathan's a good guy. we shall see though.
i'm not sure what else there is to talk about. school is finished for the summer, thank God, so i'm free to pretty much do whatever i want. i'll probably be staying with my aunt since she can't really do anything. i'll have to do her laundry and grocery shopping and such, but because i'm a good niece, i'll do it. plus i'll get to use her pool. hecks yeah. it'll be a good bonding experience. we'll get to spend some quality "girl time" together.
i think it's time for bed. i'm exhausted from loss of sleep this week, so i need to go make up for it.
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12 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Thursday, June 10th, 2004
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NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks
forward. Unique
and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking.
Fine and strong
clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in
personality. Secretive.
Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always
thinking. Less talkative but
amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and
hard-hearted. If there is
a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up.
Hardly becomes angry
unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks
differently from others.
Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not
appreciate praises.
High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and
emotions. Romantic.
Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking.
High abilities.
Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to
control emotions.
Unpredictable
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If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.
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Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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| Time: | 10:46 pm. |
| Mood: |  stressed. |
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just a quick update before i go back to doing homework/studying.
summer school is kicking my butt. i have NO time for anything else. i come home, i do homework. that's about it. i like my classes, but i'm hating all the work. i am strangely attracted to one of my professors. that makes it a little more bearable.
well, i suppose it's time to get back to work. more updates whenever i'm less stressed.
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10 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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| Time: | 11:17 pm. |
| Mood: |  sleepy. | | Music: | why georgia - john mayer. |
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i have three more finals, and i think i might die before then. i just want the semester to be over. i'm not too worried about my upcoming finals, but i just want them to be finished.
i killed a monster spider yesterday in my kitchen. i was drying some dishes, and i saw it crawling on the wall. of course i freaked out, thinking about it jumping on me. but then it started crawling up near the cabinets, and i couldn't see it anymore. but then it came back. so i ran upstairs and grabbed a shoe, ready to kill that sucker. i got a chair so i could reach it, but every time i went to smash it, it looked at me. i thought maybe it was just a coincidence the first time, but then every time i tried to climb up on the chair to get it, it turned and looked at me. seriously. he knew i was afraid of him, and he was just teasing me. then he crawled back toward the cabinets, so i lost my chance. but then he had the nerve to start climbing on the ceiling. i knew if i didn't get him then, he would probably jump on my head. so i got the broom from the closet and hit him with it while he was on the ceiling. he fell to the counter and then to the floor, i screamed, hit him repeatedly with the broom, and then grabbed my shoe and squashed the crap out of him. i hate spiders. he had freakin fur on his legs....i could see it because he was so big. last night i had a dream about him, except it wasn't just him. his whole family was there, and they were taking over my house. i had to spray them with bug spray until they died. it was quite frightening.
ummm, ok.
my mom and i are going to a Mother's Day breakfast at my aunt's church on Saturday. it should be fun since i'll be with my family. my mom will be with her mom, and i'll be with mine. i feel bad because i can't afford to get my mom anything nice. she deserves it, but the budget's just not there right now. so, instead, i'm gonna be crafty. i found my favorite picture of us from when i was younger, and i'm going to enlarge it and then decorate a frame to put it in. it's not the best present, but it's the best i can do. for now.
i'm hoping to go back to work next semester. i would really, really love to. i enjoyed my job so much, and i miss it so much. i'll just have to wait and see though.
well, i suppose i should go study a bit before bed.
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2 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:58 pm. |
| Mood: | confused. |
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i almost died today. well, maybe not, but it sure felt like i was going to. i was walking from the library down at Marshall to my geography class, and some guy in a van came whizzing from the parking lot and almost hit me. he didn't even slow down, even though he saw me. it made me so mad. i want the opportunity to almost hit him so he knows how it feels. ok, i don't, but it made my day even worse. my emotions are all out of whack, as usual. it's no shock to me. one minute i'm happy, and then the next minute i'm upset or depressed about something. it's a strange feeling, and i don't like it. i'm not like this all the time, but when i am i hate it.
he talked to me today. i'm getting to the point that i hate when he talks to me. he actually hasn't for a while, and so, of course, i wanted him to. but now that he has, i wish he hadn't. because then i think about him. and i don't want to think about him. or maybe i do. i want to, but i don't, whatever that means. i'm just sick of hiding how i really feel, like i do every time. i know i'll never get the courage to tell him, so i don't know why i torture myself. i make myself angry.
new subject because i don't want to think anymore about the previous one.
only two more days of school and then finals, and i will be free. well, until the next Monday when i begin the wonderful world of summer school. joy. i'll be down at Marshall from 9:00 AM till 4:00 PM almost everyday. and Marshall raising their tuition makes me mad. it cost $816 for two summer classes. it's ridiculous. hmm, oh well. my current classes are going pretty well. my grades are great, so i'm not worried about any of them. i can basically fail some of the finals and still get an A in the class. but i don't plan on failing any of my finals. i'll probably be getting a 4.0 this semester, which makes me happy. i've worked so hard. and i've actually had a few of the more difficult classes. but i did it. and i'm so relieved. now i get to start it all over again in the fall. i want out of Marshall ASAP. my plan is to have all my classes finished in two more years, and then the next fall i'll do my student teaching. that's the plan. i'll see if it goes through. knowing Marshall, it probably won't, but i can always hope.
i'm not really sure what else is going on in my life. school is really the biggest part. i haven't really had a whole lot of time for anything else. i've been so busy. i really need to improve my social life, haha. summer should bring more fun. at least i hope so.
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| Time: | 11:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | bittersweet symphony - oasis. |
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just a quickie before bed. i've been working forever on a poster for my children's lit class. i need it by tomorrow so my group can practice, so, of course, i waited until tonight to do it. i also had to cut some holes in my umbrella. kinda hard to explain, so i won't. but it's part of our reader's theater presentation. i'm finally finished with it all though.
it's amazing how i can switch from one mood to another so quickly. last night i was on the verge of tears, and now today i'm fine. totally fine. it's also amazing how a Disney movie can cheer you right up. i hate knowing one minute what i want, and then the next minute i have no idea. i tell myself to move on, but i just can't seem to listen. maybe i'll get smart someday.
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4 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Thursday, April 22nd, 2004
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| Time: | 10:08 pm. |
| Mood: | sleepy. |
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i haven't updated for a long while, so i figured maybe i should. i haven't really been doing anything exciting. school mainly. i've been very busy with that. i'm doing rather well this semester, so i'm not worried at all about any of my classes. but it's almost over. just another week and then finals. then the next week i start summer school. wonderful. but it's only for a month. i also scheduled for next fall, and i have 18 hours again. i'm trying to get out of Marshall. soon. enough about school.
i'm finally realizing what i want in my life and also that the guys i think i want to be with cannot provide any of that for me. it's a refreshing feeling, actually. it means i can move on and start worrying about myself and not whether i have a boyfriend. it feels so good to have a plan at the moment, even though it may not go that way in future. it makes me feel more secure if i have a temporary plan.
i saw a friend of mine yesterday. i haven't seen him since December and that was only briefly. i talked to him for a little while. i'm assuming his situation is the same as the last time i talked to him, but we didn't get into it. he needs prayer. very badly. i only hope i can be some kind of good influence on him.
my sister is coming into town this weekend! i'm very excited! i'll get to see my niece and nephew. finally. it's been three months. Jared has changed so much. he's adorbale, of course, but he looks completely different from when we were down there in January after he was born. my brother went to visit about a month ago, so we saw his pictures. we're supposed to have a family cookout at our house. i love having the whole family together. well, most of us anyway.
i think that's about it. i'm hoping to keep better track of this thing. i need to update more often, but we'll see how that goes.
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4 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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i went to see The Passion of the Christ this weekend. amazing. powerful. wow. it affected me much more than i expected. i think i cried throughout the entire movie, starting at almost the very beginning. i sat there thinking, "He did all that for me." He suffered all that pain for me, and i am so unworthy. i don't deserve any of it, but He did it anyway. and He would have done it all for just me. it was too much for me to handle, i think. i always knew He had suffered a lot, but i think actually seeing it made it more meaningful. i'm much more appreciative of it and thankful for it. my life was changed after seeing the movie. it's just sad that it took a movie to change me. even though i'm saved i know i'm still going to sin and do things i shouldn't, but there were things in my life that i knew shouldn't have been there. and every time i think about doing them i think about all the suffering, and i don't do them. it's not fair to Him for me to just throw it back in His face. i'm glad i feel this change. i watch what i do now. and i know it makes God happy when i do. and i want that in my life right now.
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5 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Saturday, February 28th, 2004
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:32 pm. |
| Mood: | sleepy. | | Music: | my immortal - evanescence. |
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today was so gorgeous. i love warm weather. it made me feel so much better. it was over 60*, and that made me happy. and tomorrow is supposed to be even warmer. that makes me even happier. but i know this weather is just a tease. it'll be cold again this weekend.
i had been feeling down for a long time. not really sure why. just a lot of things on my mind, i guess. but i'm slowly returning to my normal self, which is where i want to be. i want to be happy with myself and not worry about things i cannot control and that will happen for me eventually. i need to just face the fact that i can do nothing to change or hurry that aspect of my life. if i try to, it will only make me more miserable. so i'm sitting back and letting things fall into place from now on. hopefully.
i'm extremely tired. exhausted. i've been living on five hours of sleep every night this week. that might be more than some people get, but not me. i need more. i can barely keep my eyes open. i'll be going to sleep pretty soon to try to catch up since i didn't have much work to do tonight. usually i get to sleep in on Tuesdays and Thursdays since i don't have class until 11, but i started my clinical this week so i have to be at Hite-Saunders bright and early.
ah, yes, my clinical. i did get to go to Hite-Saunders, which pleased me to no end. i get to see my babies, hehe. i'm working in the kindergarten class this time, and it's pretty fun. i haven't really done a whole lot, but i'm getting to know the kids, and they're getting to know me. i'm hoping i don't get too attached like i have done in the past. i hate leaving the kids i work with. when i was leaving this morning they asked me, "are you coming back?" haha, i guess they thought i was never going to come back. but i reassured them i would be back next week. too cute.
i don't want to go to school tomorrow. i had a test in SOS 207 on Wednesday. i'm hoping to get it back tomorrow. it wasn't really too hard. it was actually easier than i thought. it was open book and open notes, but some of the questions were tricky. i'm hoping for a B. that would make me happy. very.
i think i'm going shopping tomorrow. with my mom, of course. i'm not sure if i'll buy anything, but, knowing me, i will. i'll find something to buy.
that's all i can think of to write. i need to go get some sleep or else i'll be grumpy tomorrow.
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4 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Friday, February 13th, 2004
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i had a geography test today. for some reason, i was so nervous. my nerves have been killing me this week. i've been a wreck. i was so nervous and stressed, and i didn't feel well last night while studying, that i actually threw up. it's been a while since i've been that nervous. i don't think it was really the test though. i think it was a combination of everything going on right now. i was in my bed just crying because my stomach and my head hurt so badly. it wasn't a good feeling. but i went into the bathroom and washed my face with cold water and finally calmed down. i'm fine now. the test is over (i got an 82, which i was happy with), and i have a whole weekend to recover.
my parents' anniversary was yesterday. haha, it was cute...they both bought each other the same card. i bought them a card and a picture frame. haha, i had no idea what to get for them. i also told them i would buy their lunch tomorrow. hey, big spender! lol.
Valentine's Day is tomorrow. i plan on spending the day probably catching up on tons of homework that is due next week. because i'm cool like that, and i'm single, as usual. but no worries. i don't mind.
i went to Best Buy today. i'm very glad i went. they were having a Valentine's Day special. certain movies were 2 for $20. woohoo. and two of the movies i've been wanting forever became mine today. i bought The Sure Thing and Pretty in Pink. i was very excited. i've been waiting forever for The Sure Thing. i love that movie so much. if you haven't seen it, rent it. or just buy it. it's funny. and John Cusack (<3333) is in it. that makes it even better. i guess i'll watch it tomorrow. because right now it's almost time for bed. i'm exhausted. i've been very emotional this week about everything, and it's wearing me out.
oh yeah, one more thing. i know i'm a little behind, but i just bought Roller Coaster Tycoon on Wednesday. i'm addicted. that's the only word that can describe it. and my brother is addicted too. he came over after school and played for two hours. i have to pry myself away from the computer. it's sad. but my park is awesome! haha. it's more successful than my brother's. wahaha. :)
well, anyway, off to bed for me. have a great Valentine's Day! :)
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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
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a water line broke somewhere around here and at some other places too. so we have no water. at all. and i'm thirsty. for water. i need it. my throat is dry. and i'm craving it. it's not a pretty picture. fortunately, we have one water bottle in the refrigerator that was completely full. so every now and then i go take a sip. if it's not back on by tomorrow morning i'll have to go to my aunt's house in the west end to get ready for school. because i need a shower. i can't brush my teeth. i need to brush my teeth.
i watched the trailer for Johnny Depp's new movie, Secret Window, last night. i think it looks pretty good. actually, i don't really care if it's good or not. i'm going to go see it when it comes out because Johnny is in it. simple as that. it should be pretty good though. i had a little Johnny day on Saturday. i watched Nick of Time and Blow. well, they were on TV. so i watched them. because they're good. i have Blow...my brother gave it to me because he didn't like it. i though it was good. and sad. :*(
i have also become obsessed with Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. i love that show. there was an all-day marathon on Sunday, and i watched quite a bit. it cracks me up. i think my mom got a little hooked too, hehe. she would come into my room and see it, and then she ended up staying and watching whole episodes. her excuse: "well, i want to see what they look like in the end." yeah, right, Mom.
i didn't wear my coat to school today. it was like 40* when i left, and i had a hoodie on so i thought it was kinda warm. yeah, at 40*. i heard it was supposed to get colder, but i didn't think it was supposed to go down much. when i came out of my last class at almost 2:00 it was freezing. and the wind was blowing so hard. right in my face. i was numb by the time i got to my car. it was not very fun. i guess that'll teach me not to wear my coat. i can't wait until the weather warms up. i want to wear my flip flops. i want to be able to go outside without a jacket. i want to not have to warm up my car before i go somewhere.
i need to go to the tanning bed. that'll warm me up. i'll start going sometime. i'll see when Easter is. that's usually when i start: close to Easter.
well, it's almost time for Queer Eye! i guess i'll go watch it and work on my unit plan for class. :/
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6 Miracles - Our Love Can Do Miracles.
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
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